Void

I have come to the conclusions that i am a fornicator and somewhat of a liar. I want to become a God fearing woman who has no question of my fate or faith. If I were to die today i am not exactly sure of my fate. The sad thing is I know better so why don't i do better. Growing up in church doesn't make me any more saved than the next person. I can't continue to make the same constant mistakes. I don't even think i can classify them as mistakes because i do know better.I need to know God  for myself and not depend on the knowledge that  i received via sermons. Those sermons don't internalize if I don't do  the research and develop a personal relationship with God. I just hope God that i haven't gone so far left that i can't get back to the right place. I can't surround myself with ppl who will hinder my development.I feel like I've  said i am gonna get right so many times that I'm not sure if i believe myself. However, I am determined to know God for myself. I desire to feel this void with the boldness of Christ. So today is my first real honest moment with myself. This is my form of therapy.
This is my Naked Truth.